"Fixing Me"

So, I shared a bit of what I've been going through well now I'm going to share some of what I'm trying to do to help myself.  One, and most important, I am trying to refocus my relationship w/ God mainly trying to constantly make myself focus on the fact that it's the most important relationship and through God the rest of my life will fall back into place.  I'm trying to spend more time with my church family so that I surround myself w/ Christians who will lift me up.  I'm also tying to not just go through the "motion" at church but really put something in it.

On the other side of this "fixing me" thing, are my meds and counseling.  I spoke w/ the Dr and he agreed that increasing my meds would be beneficial and that going into counseling would probably help me a great deal.  I have already increased my meds and I have my first counseling session on Tuesday and I'm looking forward to it.  The counselor I'm going to is Christian based which was a very important thing in finding someone to go to...plus she doesn't charge too much...lol.  Counseling can be expensive. 

I kind of feel like I'm getting more on the right path and perhaps I will finally come out of this "fog" that I have been in for so so many years.  I'm just so tired of being sad about everything all the time and never having any hope in anything...that is so not a way to live.